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Q&A : Youtube & 2018 | heyclaire

hi guys welcome back I hope that you guys are having a great start to your year so far I guess I should formally say Happy New Year because I know in my last couple videos I haven’t really done a sit down and talk to you all so I thought it would come back with a really nice chill Q&A and just catch up with you a little bit I know that in the end of last year a lot of us were feeling kind of negative or at least feeling of great sense of change and a lot of people in my personal life and then just also people that I think responded to my last video just all felt very much the same I think any beginning of the year is an awesome time to kind of re-evaluate things and change but there’s something about this year I don’t know about you guys but this year just feels really different but exciting I think more than anything so to start off today’s video I just want to start with some really light questions because some of them are a little deeper and we’re gonna talk a little bit more about some of the things that you know I was feeling at the end of this year and I think a lot of you just judging from your response to my last video are feeling the same so I wanted to touch on that take a little bit of time with that as well but to start off with Tiffany asked what’s your favorite song of the moment and if you follow me on Instagram you know that right now I cannot get enough of Miguel’s song told you so and a lot of times I feel like I identify with lyrics of a song and stuff like that but this one is mostly about the beat and the vibe that I get from it I just really love listening to this song every morning it just kind of I don’t know puts me in a good mood if you know of any other songs that kind of are in a similar vein please feel free to leave them as suggestions down below because I kind of just want to keep making a playlist of those kinds of songs and I do have a Spotify account that I have a couple of playlists public for you all so you can listen to some of the songs that I’m currently listening to a lot I will leave that again down below for you all but yeah that’s definitely my Selma moment and those of you who follow me on Instagram might be tired of hearing that next up page asks how’s motorcycle riding going and I get this question every once in a while because I did mention that I got my motorcycle license last year I think I got it in around June or something like that and I got so excited because I had always wanted to do it and it’s something that’s been on my bucket list like ever since I was younger I even a guy for a while who rode motorcycles for a living so I definitely was a round motorcycle culture and so yeah having the opportunity to get it was really exciting and fun but after I got my license I got into an accident and it didn’t scare me enough to keep me from ever wanting to ride a bike but I just knew that I wasn’t comfortable on it and I needed to find the right bike in order to learn properly and it’s kind of like a double-edge thing I don’t know if I want to spend a lot of money on a bike to possibly get into another accident and I just need to find the right bike to be on and you know this that and the other and I just haven’t put that time aside to figure all of that out it’s just not necessarily a priority from right now so nothing has really changed in my motorcycle riding nothing is improved and then I haven’t bought a bike or anything like that I don’t plan it on any time soon I want to buy a car first but yeah that’s pretty much how motorcycle riding is going I’m glad that I have my license but nothing has really changed happy news I wanted to know why you took your nose-ring out I find this question so funny because I mean granted I did kind of shine a light on it a little bit because when I took it out I posted an Instagram photo I was like if I told you that something was missing from this photo would you figure it out and it was my nose ring the thing is that I literally had no plans of taking it out I just was like one day looking at myself and I was like oh my god I’ve had this in for I don’t even know at least like 10 or 12 years and I don’t remember what it’s like to not really have it I don’t know that it makes a difference if I do have it I’m certainly the same person with and without it why don’t I take it out and try it for a while so I took it out and I haven’t really looked back since I feel like the hole is always gonna be there because I’ve had it for so long so I could always put it back in if I want to but right now I’m kind of just enjoying not having it it’s not really anything deeper than that I just figured why not okay so this is probably a good question to start diving into things what’s your direction for your channel in 2018 and beyond any surprises like a clothing line or more jewelry from you or a potential makeup collaboration love and miss your content thank you so much so I am not 100% sure where I want to go with my channel I think you know it always started with beauty and lifestyle that’s always gonna be kind of the foundation of what I start but it became clear that that wasn’t just what I wanted to focus on I think early on and I wanted to do more than just that so yeah I I don’t ever want to put myself in a box I hate having too many rules and I don’t want to be confined to this box either ultimately I just want to produce content that I enjoy and then I have fun with and that I think you might find useful whether it’s informational or whatnot I just I don’t think that I want to think too hard about it honestly this kind of actually ties into another question that I saw earlier which is how do you feel about the current state of the beauty community on YouTube or do you no longer feel connected to the beauty community and my response to that is not to pick on the beauty community by any means I think YouTube in general has changed so much in the last couple years and currently with the state of YouTube I feel really uncomfortable sometimes saying that I’m on YouTube because I feel like there are implications with that that are not accurate for everybody if that makes any sense and I’ve always looked at YouTube as a form of a creative outlet and I’ve always wanted to enjoy what I do and produce and for the last couple years I’ve had a really hard time figuring out what it is that I still enjoy about this because I do like making videos and I do like sharing information with you guys and telling stories and I love interacting with you guys because you guys are so supportive and wonderful and I think that I’m very lucky to have you as a community and the thing that I think is so great about you guys in particular is that I think somehow we’ve created this awesome supportive community that understands that we’re all human and we all go through things and not necessarily every other person has that and so I never want you guys to think that I take that for granted and I don’t it’s just that my approach to my channel and YouTube in general has always just been that I want to enjoy it and have fun and produce stuff that I am proud of and I think so much of what we do now is about numbers and it’s a numbers game and I’ve never wanted that to be motivation for what I do so I guess what I would say about YouTube in general and people coming into this space where it’s like so oversaturated is like it’s such a competition now and I’ve never wanted to compete with anybody I’ve just wanted to be myself and enjoy what I do and focus on me so that’s that’s pretty much what I think I’m gonna be doing this year as far as collaborations and stuff obviously I was so excited about the majority collaboration and your response to that has been incredible and it definitely motivates me to try and look into creating other things what those things might be is a little unclear right now sorry the light keeps going in and out but that’s a fall for you but I’m not a hundred percent sure what I necessarily want to create or produce in the future but I definitely want to do other things because that’s fun and exciting why did Steffi move out I also wanted to see more Bruce in the kittens someone should start a band called Bruce and the kittens so first off obviously the kittens were adorable and seeing Bruce with kittens was just absolutely adorable but for those of you who were confused by the kitten appearance in my last video and didn’t follow me on Instagram when all of that was happening basically a friend of mine had a bunch of kittens had five kittens that were available for adoption because she had a feral cat that lived in the area and unfortunately in the area that she lives in coyotes often you know take away animals which is really sad and unfortunate but their mom got eaten by a coyote and so she was trying to find them all homes and and didn’t want to take him to a shelter obviously so I was about to leave for Ghana and I thought you know if the timing is right when I come back and they’re still available maybe I’ll come and try to adopt one and she was kind of running out of time to keep them and so Stef went over to see you know maybe if she got along with some of the kittens and and everything and ended up coming home with two kittens instead of one and they’re adorable they’re now known as pinky and tags but when I got back it just kind of became a lot to have three cats in the house and that kind of honestly set a little bit more of an urgency for her to move out so I loved having them there and obviously they were great entertainment and they do have an Instagram if you want to check it out I’ll leave a link down below they are much bigger now there’s still kind of stuff still posting like kitten videos and stuff because she was gone for like a month but they did grow up really fast but they’re still adorable they have great personalities and everything but yeah so that’s kind of the story with the kittens and yes step didn’t move out we’re still really good friends and we’re really close and we try to see each other as much as possible but yeah she doesn’t live with me and I’m on my own again so there we go okay so I think these questions I think kind of fit together in a way what are the biggest changes that have happened in your life recently and how do those affect your career channel etc moving forward change can be scary how do you personally go about embracing change as you go about the new year I think change is the biggest thing at any beginning of the year but especially this year like I was saying at the beginning of this video I’ve really embraced it’s obviously scary to realize that you have become a certain way and that you need to change to better yourself and to be a bigger person and to grow and be stronger I think more than anything I realized that you know any of the bad things that have happened to me or that I you know have kind of gone through and I don’t think you need to know specifics when it comes to that because ultimately the lesson is what’s important it’s not like what necessarily led up to it but I think that all the things that have happened for me in the last couple years good and bad have forced me to reflect on myself in a way that I wouldn’t have otherwise been able to if those things didn’t happen so I’m really thankful for that and and that’s the way that I have to spin it in order to make myself not go into a deep dark hole and you know feel really sad about it because the thing is it’s really easy to feel bad about something and feel negatively or think negatively and then keep thinking negative thoughts and for some reason I guess it’s cuz it’s you know a downward thing like it just is easy to slide down into that darkness and I I felt really dark and I felt really depressed for a really long time and I have struggled with the depression on and off since I was a teenager it’s not something that I’ve talked too much about just because it wasn’t something that I really realized as I got older still being an issue like I knew that every once in a while I felt lower than others but I didn’t feel like it was really a struggle for me at the time maybe I had enough distractions or was confident enough and myself at that point where I didn’t let it get down to those dark places but I think with a combination of things and I think maybe being a little blind to certain things in my own life in the last couple years it just kind of allowed me to go to a dark place and thankfully I was able to kind of realize where I was and that I was struggling and that I needed to snap out of it and I was able to kind of make those steps to find a way out and find you know a way to start feeling better about things and I’m still figuring out I think it’s one of those things that you have to practice it daily and you know each day is different but each day is a new opportunity to make yourself better and I think one of my biggest goals for 2018 personally is to just find that happy medium because I think the thing that most of you really identified with when I did my 2017 video Thank You 2017 was when I said that finding or being able to sustain as a consistent level of happiness it’s difficult when the foundation of who you are is unstable and the thing that made me realize that is I realized how I had kind of lost a lot of self confidence and I was really questioning a lot of things about myself and when you are already unsure of how you feel about yourself or you know your work or whatever it is it’s really easy for something negative to happen in your life to further knock you down when you’re already you know kind of there because I think that was the other thing about last year especially that I noticed was that I had some really awesome great times like say here’s the happy medium I’m just going to create like this hand graph for you guys but you know I had so many high highs but then as soon as I was done with that high or that event was done or you know that experience was done I would get really low and I wouldn’t be able to sustain just like being content with me like I would just get really dark and I’d be like there would be just this huge contrast in the happiness and the sadness and to be able to not fall below that line I think is my Ulta goal for this year and I think once you have that level of confidence and that consistency in your content and present that you know work doesn’t suffer as much and you know you can look forward to doing more things in the future and get excited about being more creative and producing more stuff so that for me for the last couple weeks and months has been something that I’ve been working on and something that I think I’m getting better at and I’m it therefore is making me more excited to be working towards the future though I kind of answered some of this already but Aaron asked what are your overall goals for yourself and how do you plan on achieving them fitness travel organization so like I said obviously being able to find that level of happiness and being able to sustain that kind of presence and and whatnot in in the new year is definitely a big goal of mine fitness wise I don’t really have too many goals I just want to continue to stay consistent I’m actually I mean if I can be proud of one thing last year other than you know being able to kind of get myself out of this dark hole but also I kept up with my fitness and despite being really depressed I still force myself to go work out because it got me out of the house and it got me to focus on something that I felt like I was still bettering myself in as far as travel goes I definitely want to go more places than I did last year I mean I’m so thankful that I get to travel period but I think for myself I’d just like to take even small trips around California and just like do a little bit more exploring and you know find reasons to just like go and do things on my own and not worry about you know planning too far ahead and stuff like that just to have more experiences would be great organization definitely is something that I want to focus on this year as well because I think more than ever I realized that your space and how chaotic it might feel is kind of like a reflection on how you feel on the inside so I want to organize things so that I personally just feel a little bit more at ease because looking at piles of stuff everywhere and you know I have like a product corner I just I hate looking at that corner I need to get rid of stuff because it’s just staring at me and saying give me a home okay okay so I think that that does it for today’s video guys thank you so much for watching I know that sometimes these things get a little deep I’d love to really hear your feedback and some of the things that you’re really excited about this year and some of the things that maybe you started to kind of implement into your routine to make you feel better about this year because like I said in my thank-you 2017 video like I’ve always tried to be like the strong individual person that you know promoted being okay with being on your own and I know a lot of people still to this day ask me about like breakups and dealing relationships and stuff like that and I want to be able to talk about those things and help you guys out because it is really important to be able to like stand on your own and be confident and be happy and I feel like I’m slowly getting back to that person and I hope that a lot of you guys are feeling that way too because ultimately it’s all about how you are able to deal with your own issues and your things and being confident in how you feel about things and not being afraid to feel certain things so yeah let’s let’s work on bettering ourselves together and support each other continue to do that and yeah I’d love to talk more about it so thanks so much for watching guys and I’ll see you next video I hope you have a great week bye

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